bank

To add to my multitude of troubles, I pretty much have no money to draw from the bank. I'm living on pocket cash and I'm losing a lot of the benefits that come with keeping a certain level of money in my account. What that meant for today: scavenging my desk drawer for gift cards. Lucky for me, I found a few goods ones.

Cheesecake Factory - $34 (Thank you Section D students, I miss being your TA)

Best Buy - $15 (I will be using you in the future for a cell phone car charger)

BORDERS - $25 (I'm going to you tomorrow for some coffee and study)

BORDERS - $25 (that might allow me to put in two weeks there)

Macy's - Unknown amount (I need a bag for work - though I'm sure I'll feel compelled to drop $100 for that)

I've been doing my best to be frugal, so, for example, instead of buying new suits, I looked through my existing suits like a mad man to see if they could still be worn. I went to the taillor, realized I had gotten fat, but then came out satisfied knowing that the nice Korean tailors (really nice!) could do a 1-inch let-out to the delight of my waist. 

After thinking too deeply about how I would use the Macy's card with an unknown value, I thought using it on a bag would be a waste, considering my dad has a bunch. To my dismay, he threw out many of his old ones, and the ones that were stashed away in the catacombs were beyond pretentious.

Ironically, this one would make me look like a banker, or that I should at least be sporting a Jaeger. To be fair, my dad received this as a gift in the past year or so, and apparently, it's price tag is no downer. Not a fan of the brown, though. But alas, my wallet speaks the truth and I may have to rock this banker briefcase for the first month.

On another note, I spoke with Kimiko over the past few days and she'll be attending JHU starting this fall. Well actually, starting this late summer to get a headstart on a few things. She'll staying at our place starting sometime during the first week of August.  I'm so happy for and proud of her!

Now it's 6:20am and I'm not really sure why I couldn't fall asleep. I was literally laying in my bed with my eyes closed for an hour to no avail. Then I played SPADES on my cell phone for an hour to force myself to sleep, but yet again with no success. Then I decided - "forget it" - I might as well just study when I'm awake. So here I am tapping away before I re-commence. I forgot to mention that I have get a small surgical operation in a few hours. Woe is me.

Vicious cycle

Study
Stress
Eat more
Sleep at awkward times
Body crumbling
Little exercise
Inefficient study
Sleep less
Repeat

kinda stressed, but inching back

Sorry if I haven't responded to your email or have made conversations uncomfortable short. I've been focusing on getting back on schedule, and overall, I'm doing pretty well. But due to the speed at which I'm crunching through the material, I feel like I'm missing out on digging deeply into the material. Yet, I've come to accept that this is the nature of the beast. No one can possibly master everything, and you get tired, and worn out, then you sometimes see the bright light at the end of the tunnel. Yesterday, I received an 89% on a practice multiple choice, then this morning at 5am, I got a 43%. I'm sure the sleep deprivation contributed to it. 

I'm determined to get completely caught back up by this Saturday, and it's looking hopeful. I have to remember that this is an endurance battle. And my health issues are reminding me that I have to rest. But I also have to make sure I sleep and get up at the right times. 

All that said, I know my thoughts aren't coming out write on this screen so I think I'll just stop here. Maybe some Busta will bring me back to life.