drama

While studying for this evidence test, I found myself aimlessly clicking through j-dorama files on my computer. I ended up watching an entire episode of ふたつのスピカ (twin Spicas), which is about "space school" (宇宙学校) that is established in Japan for highschool students.  More importantly, it's about a bunch of kids who chase after their dream of going to space, but as with any typical j-dorama, the development of each character is central (as I write this and post the picture below I am slightly embarrassed by how much I am addicted to watching these things).

I remember watching the dorama a year or so back and thinking how ridiculous the entire plot was, but watching through an entire episode this time around (what am I doing...) made me realize how cynical I've become.  I had aspirations and goals, and not that I don't have those now, but it seems lost in a pile of obligations and the day-to-day monotony.  Granted, I've grounded myself more in reality, but I thought, I never want my life to be dictated by cynicism.

Instead, I want to return to and embrace my dreams with energy, passion, and youthful vitality.  However blind it may have been, I miss the confidence and determination that were borne from fighting to realize these aspirations - because that's what has defined me (I remember receiving the "challenger" award from my undergrad, SUA - lol thanks, Julie).  So from today on again I am going to seek something more profound, more important, and more encompassing than the daily to-dos.  Time to make life more dramatic again . . . after taking this Evidence quiz.