I'm alive

Sorry to anyone who is bored to enough to keep up with my musings.  I haven't had the time to update this blog, but here's a post just to say that I'm alive.  Almost directly after my three weeks of hell, a huge gust of sansho shima hit, and I've been dealing with a lot of negativity in my life.  I'm dealing with a powerful punch from my good friend from the sixth heaven, who wields the power to manipulate my karma with relationships.  It's been pretty hard - to the point where it's difficult to sleep.

But I really cherish this time because it's allowed me to confront myself in the mirror enclosed in my alter.  I find it timely that my friend has showed up at this time, when I ostensibly believe that I have other, more important things to worry about.  But something I've learned through my practice is that nothing is more important than confronting the functions that defile your life and to transform yourself into a stronger person.  It's the perfect way to know yourself and to develop a state of life that is free from fear, doubt, anxiety, and sorrow.  Thus, I find it absolutely essential - and perfect - that, in the pursuit of obtaining a job,  I have to overcome my deep negativity.  Today, I rise again  :)